I’m always talking about the changes that need to occur in my life, but at this very moment I’m acutely aware of the fact that I haven’t done one damn thing about it, except complain. I’ve allowed this negative thought-process to eat away at me little by little. And while circumstances may not always be in my favor, why would that be any reason to give away my happiness?
People will sometimes lie, sometimes they’ll use you, hurt you, or cause you to doubt your own worth. Sometimes money will be tight, the laundry can be overwhelming, and the shit will hit the fan.
These are just things; passing moments, that one day won’t matter, so why should it matter now?
All I can really do is focus on myself. And in those times when even that seems to be A challenge, I just need to remember to put one foot in front of the other. And along the way, I will leave behind the weighted pieces that I don’t want to carry with me.
It’s all about self-worth and creating boundaries. If someone wants to lie to me, then they will. I can’t change that. But I don’t have to allow them to continue lying to me–I can simply choose the company I want to keep.
It’s really that simple.
I’m realizing, too, that I can’t fault others for who they are. And I certainly can’t change it. It’s not their fault when I find myself attached and unable to accept the things I already know. It’s not their fault that I give second and third chances for them to prove me right over and over again. It’s my fault for allowing such a bond or attachment or even the idea or expectation to influence how I would rather view them. If they aren’t able to meet my expectations in terms of standards and character, then it’s my fault for keeping them around.
So yeah, changes are happening right now. And it feels good. 🙂